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Thursday, October 28, 2010


“What do girls want from guys?”

‘They want them to understand what they feel without having to tell guys what they are feeling at that moment’

Now I know the ignorance that I did most. Somehow I think I’m lack of that. Lack of understanding the things that a girl want most. I always make it as simple as possible. But the truth is the simplest thing to me is the most complicated for others.

“Yes I understand”. But do I really understand that? I don’t even know. What I know is when I see the changes in face expression or voice, I will stop talking. I’m afraid it might hurt if I continue talking. But that is not the thing I’m afraid most.

What I’m afraid most? I afraid that history will repeat itself. I’m afraid that if I wait so long that I will lose. Yes I have experience on that. I’ve waited so long, long enough to make me realized, “why do I have to wait anymore?” It’s useless.

To a friend, thanks for the advices and thanks for listening to me.

To you. Yes you. I know you will read this. Bear with me. In the process of learning (yes I’m still new), I tend to make mistakes and somehow make you angry. Do tell me what’s wrong and what’s not. My feelings are real and I’m not playing with that. We got times to improve ourselves day by day, you and me.

‘When the time comes, it will happen naturally. Now we are fretting over silly matters but who knows what tomorrow brings?’

Who knows? Allah knows surely. That’s why I pray and eagerly waiting for tomorrow. XD




p.s: Malam tadi punya la banyak benda nak cakap, nak tulis. Tapi tertidur. Bangun tidur habis lupa semua. Well itulah aku. Kalau aku marah/sedih/risau/tak puas hati etc, suruh je aku tidur. Surely lepas bangun hilang semua. Barang yang lepas biarkan ia berlalu. Eceh lempang kang.

p.p.s: Quote di atas adalah sebahagian transkrip perbualan antara aku dengan besfren. Untuk full transkrip hendaklah memohon perkenan beliau dahulu. Weh seriously, yang last tu mmg advice paling berguna penah ko bg kt aku. Haha.

p.p.p.s: Aku rasa post kali ni post jiwang. Adess. Apekah? Dalam hati ada taman la ni. Pfft~

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Ready to move on

This morning, I did something unexpected. Yeah. For the first time I confess to someone that I like her. Seriously. And I felt really embarrassed after that.

That’s not the point. The point is, I’m ready to move on. It’s been years and I’ve never been able to recover. Yes, when I’m talking about move on and recover I meant You-Know-Who. (You have to read my blog from the beginning. Literally from beginning)

I met her in unexpected place. Yes it’s all about unexpected. But now there’s a problem. I said those thing when she currently in a process of breaking up. Is that mean that I’m too early? But really what I feel right now is I’m being too rush. Or a simple word “tak sabar-sabar”.

I don’t know what’s she thinks about me right now.

But yeah. It happened. I’m not expect too much after this. I did say those words. And I can’t take it back because I really mean it. What’s done is done. Maybe it’s just a beginning.

And I’m ready to move on. This time really moving on.

p.s: Aku tak tau nk buat camne dgn situasi aku. Nasihat orang boleh tp time kena kat diri sendiri mmg hampeh. Kalaulah arwah ada lagi… Yeah ‘kalau’. I need someone to talk to. Yeah someone please…

p.p.s: This morning seperti ayat di atas berlaku sejurus selepas subuh. Pfft~ Aku rasa sgt gila. Arrghh!!

p.p.p.s: FIRST TIME YAW!! First time tu. And she didn’t believe me. I didn’t believe myself either. Pfft~~~

Tuesday, October 19, 2010


Honestly aku malas nak update. Rasa nak biarkan je blog ni bersawang. Tapi ada orang cakap jangan malas. So dengan rajinnya dan untuk kesekian kalinya aku meng-hapdate blog ini.



And aku tak tau nak cakap apa.

Oh dem.



Later la. Pfft~