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Friday, April 6, 2007

May You Always Feel Loved

Dear Blog,

I dunno what to write.

Tapi yg penting....


Aku nk keluar dari Malaysia! Nk pergi ke suatu tempat yg takde sape yg kenal. A place that can makes me happy.


May You Always Feel Loved

May you find serenity and tranquility in a world
You may not always understand.

May the pain you have known and conflict you have experienced
Give you the strength to walk through life
Facing each new situation with courage and optimism.

Always know that there are those whose love and understanding
Will always be there, even when you feel most alone.

May you discover enough goodness in others
To believe in a world of peace.

May a kind word, a reassuring touch, a warm smile be yours
Every day of your life,
And may you give these gifts as well as receive them.

Remember the sunshine when the storm seems unending.

Teach love to those who know hate,
And let that love embrace you as you go into the world.

May the teaching of those you admire become part of you,
So that you may call upon them.
Remember, those whose lives you have touched
And who have touched yours are always a part of you,
Even if the encounters were less than you would have wished.
It is the content of the encounter that is more important than it's form.

May you not become too concerned with material matters,
But instead place immeasurable value on the goodness in your heart.

Find time in each day to see the beauty and love in the world around you.

Realize that each person has limitless abilities,
But each of us is different in our own way.
What you may feel you lack in one regard
May be more than compensated for in another.
What you feel you lack in the present
May become one of your strengths in the future.

May you see your future as one filled with promise and possibility.
Learn to view everything as a worthwhile experience.

May you find enough inner strength to determine your own worth by yourself,
And not be dependent on another's judgement of your accomplishments.

May you always feel loved.

-1987 Sandra Sturtz Hauss-

Monday, April 2, 2007

Maybe They're Suppose To Be There

Dear Blog,

Thank God internet OK balik. Coz time balik sini dapat tau yg server UM down. So, I have to wait until now. But it's ok. You know Blog, aku dalam dilema skang. I'm in confuse state. Should or shouldn't I let her go. I mean should I forget her? And what about this new one? Owh, lupe lak. This one I get from my senior's blog.

"If You Can't Get Someone Out from Your Head, Maybe They are Supposed To Be THERE"

how many of you agree with this statement???

for me, mungkin betul kot... tapi depends gak...Kadang2 keegoan kita yang menghalang dia terhapus dr ingatan..... tapi ada juga kebenaran yang jelas... if we really don't need or love him/her anymore why cant we just forget about him/her???

...... xmple paling mudah : Ivy sangat cintakan Nigel...Tapi Nigel dah hilang rasa kasih dekat Ivy ..Plus dorg dah duduk jauh and Nigel dah jumpa Gurl baru.Nigel sgt berusaha utk melarikan diri dari Ivy.... Bukan Ivy tak tahu or faham yg Nigel taknak dia....Tapi cinta dan sayang tu tak pernah hilang dan masih ada.... She still tak giveup utk bersama Nigel...Nigel still ada dlm ingatan dan Hati Ivy...walaupun dorg dah 3years tak jumpa dan tak bersama.... Ivy pernah cuba utk lupa kan kisah cinta lama dia....Ivy always pray to god supaya tarik rasa kasih terhadap Nigel if He is really not 'The ONE'..... but still sampai skang Nigel still da king of her HEart.... so why? memang patut Nigel ada dlm kepala otak Ivy ke?

for me sepatutnya Ivy cari dunia baru dia....jgn stuck dgn kisah silam lagi....tp soal hati dan perasaan tak semudah bermain dgn perkataan.... ramai org terperangkp dlm permainan cinta tak kesampaian... ramai org jugak yg masih menjadi pemburu cinta....

Sophia buru cinta-->Josh..Josh memburu Cinta ---> Ivy... Ivy buru cinta--->Nigel...Nigel Happy with Susan....

see the chain??? apakah maknanya itu? tak boleh ke Ivy kasi peluang kat Josh?? atau Josh kasi peluang dkt Sophia?? but we must remember one thing.... Jangan cinta org kerana simpati.....

i guess Sophia,Josh and Ivy or semua org yg berhadapan dgn masalah mcm nie actually kena just keep ur option open.... bukak minda dan hati.....beri sedikit ruang utk mengenali org sekeliling... there is still mr.rite or mrs.rite for u all....

Hmm... Actually ape yg die ckp ade gak kene mengena ngan aku. Like Ivy. But not exactly the same as the story la. But still, if I read it back, rase cam some part of the story really happen to me.

Berbalik kepada tujuan asal. I am very confuse. I can't get You Know Who out of my head. I just can't. Even aku rapat camne ngan seseorang pon tak dapat gak. Camne ni Blog? Aku betul betul dalam dilema.

Like I said last post, I've met someone already. But ape gune aku rapat ngan die, katelah her name is N. Ok, ape gune aku rapat ngan N tp aku still teringat kat You Know Who? Aku taknak jadikan N sbg tempat untuk melupakan You Know Who. Walau ape cara sekalipun aku buat, I just can't get her out of my head. Aku rase cam I'm using N untuk kepentingan aku sendiri. Am I that mean person? Aku cuba lari tp it keep chasing after me.

Then I ask my senior for her advices. Die ckp tak adil kalo kite rapat ngan seseorang semata mata untuk melupakan yang lama. Betul gak. Tak adil. So, die ade suggest something. And bile aku fikirkan suggestion tu, masuk akal gak. Coz kalo aku simpan bende nih, bleh jadi gila dibuatnya. I have plans and I won't tell you. Just nak bgtau, after this plan successfull then baru aku rase I can begin a new life.

I'm really not into any relationship right now. I can't. I'm not ready yet.

To N, I'm sorry if this writing hurt you. I'm really sorry but I'm not into any relationship right now. Just not ready to face the truth. The truth that I still remember her. The truth that I can't forget her. We can be friends or best friends but at this time not more than that. I hope you will understand.
Maybe she suppose to be in my heart. Maybe....~