A Brand New

Dear Blog,

I stumbled across one of my friend yesterday. Actually my friend's little brother. And guess what... Ade ke die kate aku gemok? WTH??!! Okay... Maybe aku nih tembam sket... Tapi tak gemok ek. But still ape yg die ckp tu terngiang-ngiang kat kepale aku.... Wuwuwuuuuu... Aku tak gemok la. "Membesar" sket ade la. Nih sume sebab kat kolej la nih. Almost every night I eat at least two times. Two times tau tak... And berat semakin bertambah.

Tak tau la. But lately I eat when I feel frust or depress. Solving problem with eating. That's a nice way!! And look what happen to me now. Balik cuti je sume ckp aku da gemok. Pipi tembam la, perut besar la, tangan cam batang pisang la... Ish... Satu sem berat naik 7 kilo... Kire ok la tu.. Tu pon berat skarang nih blom capai BMI. Jauh bebeno...

Makan... Bile aku teringat die aku akan rase kecewa and frust and aku akan makan. Camne nih. I still can't forget her. Everyday I keep thinking about her.

Hmm... It's getting more complicated. The more I try to forget her the more I keep thinking about her. Dah tak tau nak buat ape lg dah ni.. Ape yg aku bleh buat is just keep living. Teruskan hidup..

Result dah kuar and Alhamdulillah pointer naik la sket. Sket je tak byk. That's not the best. I expect dapat tinggi lg but dah dpt camni nak ubah camne lg... Kene la struggle lagi sem depan. Dah la Quantum Physics ngan Electomegnetic killer subject. Waaaa.... Ngan result camni camne la nk survive... Nak sambung Master pon rase susah...

But now this is me. A little bit chubby. A brand new me. Maybe cuti nih berat susut sket kot. Tapi takpe la.. Lain dari aku yg dulu... Physically different but mentally the same. I think... Especially when it comes to You Know Who~