Understand

“What do girls want from guys?”

‘They want them to understand what they feel without having to tell guys what they are feeling at that moment’

Now I know the ignorance that I did most. Somehow I think I’m lack of that. Lack of understanding the things that a girl want most. I always make it as simple as possible. But the truth is the simplest thing to me is the most complicated for others.

“Yes I understand”. But do I really understand that? I don’t even know. What I know is when I see the changes in face expression or voice, I will stop talking. I’m afraid it might hurt if I continue talking. But that is not the thing I’m afraid most.

What I’m afraid most? I afraid that history will repeat itself. I’m afraid that if I wait so long that I will lose. Yes I have experience on that. I’ve waited so long, long enough to make me realized, “why do I have to wait anymore?” It’s useless.

To a friend, thanks for the advices and thanks for listening to me.

To you. Yes you. I know you will read this. Bear with me. In the process of learning (yes I’m still new), I tend to make mistakes and somehow make you angry. Do tell me what’s wrong and what’s not. My feelings are real and I’m not playing with that. We got times to improve ourselves day by day, you and me.

‘When the time comes, it will happen naturally. Now we are fretting over silly matters but who knows what tomorrow brings?’

Who knows? Allah knows surely. That’s why I pray and eagerly waiting for tomorrow. XD

 

 

 

p.s: Malam tadi punya la banyak benda nak cakap, nak tulis. Tapi tertidur. Bangun tidur habis lupa semua. Well itulah aku. Kalau aku marah/sedih/risau/tak puas hati etc, suruh je aku tidur. Surely lepas bangun hilang semua. Barang yang lepas biarkan ia berlalu. Eceh lempang kang.

p.p.s: Quote di atas adalah sebahagian transkrip perbualan antara aku dengan besfren. Untuk full transkrip hendaklah memohon perkenan beliau dahulu. Weh seriously, yang last tu mmg advice paling berguna penah ko bg kt aku. Haha.

p.p.p.s: Aku rasa post kali ni post jiwang. Adess. Apekah? Dalam hati ada taman la ni. Pfft~

Ready to move on

This morning, I did something unexpected. Yeah. For the first time I confess to someone that I like her. Seriously. And I felt really embarrassed after that.

That’s not the point. The point is, I’m ready to move on. It’s been years and I’ve never been able to recover. Yes, when I’m talking about move on and recover I meant You-Know-Who. (You have to read my blog from the beginning. Literally from beginning)

I met her in unexpected place. Yes it’s all about unexpected. But now there’s a problem. I said those thing when she currently in a process of breaking up. Is that mean that I’m too early? But really what I feel right now is I’m being too rush. Or a simple word “tak sabar-sabar”.

I don’t know what’s she thinks about me right now.

But yeah. It happened. I’m not expect too much after this. I did say those words. And I can’t take it back because I really mean it. What’s done is done. Maybe it’s just a beginning.

And I’m ready to move on. This time really moving on.

p.s: Aku tak tau nk buat camne dgn situasi aku. Nasihat orang boleh tp time kena kat diri sendiri mmg hampeh. Kalaulah arwah ada lagi… Yeah ‘kalau’. I need someone to talk to. Yeah someone please…

p.p.s: This morning seperti ayat di atas berlaku sejurus selepas subuh. Pfft~ Aku rasa sgt gila. Arrghh!!

p.p.p.s: FIRST TIME YAW!! First time tu. And she didn’t believe me. I didn’t believe myself either. Pfft~~~

Updating

Honestly aku malas nak update. Rasa nak biarkan je blog ni bersawang. Tapi ada orang cakap jangan malas. So dengan rajinnya dan untuk kesekian kalinya aku meng-hapdate blog ini.

 

 

And aku tak tau nak cakap apa.

Oh dem.

 

 

Later la. Pfft~

A year after

It's been a year.

Yeah, a year.

Dear God~

It's been a year.

p/s: sori lately post2 yg emo... so much things happened for the last 12 months (especially sebulan lepas) and i have no one to talk to... and it kills me!

A something for you

If I can wish you

A Happy Birthday to you.

If I can tell you

How much I miss you.

But here’s my wish to you

May God bless you

May you’ll be happy there

May you’ll find peace there

My prayers will be with you.

If I can wish you

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday to you.

 

 

I’m sorry. I can’t continue. Coz every time I try, there’ll always tears in my eyes. I will always remember you. Al-Fatihah.

A reminder

Ok. Here’s one thing you guys should know about me.

1. I have a car. Yes. Maybe only Myvi but still a car.
2. Having a car doesn’t make me a drive addict. In fact I HATE DRIVING!
3. I’m not a person who likes to wandering around, drive somewhere just because I don’t have things to do. “aku takde bende nak buat so jalan2 round tempat ni la”. That’s not me.
4. I’d prefer staying at home watching TV or playing video games. Staying at home quietly.
5. I only drive when I’m going to work or have something to do or when my mum ask me to. That’s it.

So  now that you know me, I have a big favor to ask.

Please please please don’t ask me to go somewhere just to do some stupid things! I’m not your driver and for God’s sake please don’t bribe me saying “I’ll buy you something”. It won’t do for me. Even if you give me hundred or thousand or maybe million bucks just for the toll or gas I don’t see it worth because still I’m doing the drive thing. So again please.

“Shamim, jom pegi situ..”
“Buat ape?”
“Saje je…”

See the point? Why on Earth do I have to trouble myself just because you say “saje je…”. I have things to do too and things to worry. Please la.

Lain la kalau aku memang nak pergi situ pon. Then I will say “ok nanti aku amik ko”. Tapi kalau pergi situ hanya sebab orang tu fikir best tapi aku rasa tak best, then why trouble myself?

I’m not saying after this I won’t take you guys out anymore. What I’m trying to say is please think before you say/ask. And please understand my situation too.

That’s all. One at a time. If I think of any, I’ll post it later.

Jaa~

 

 

p.s: maybe ade org akan terasa… but please understand, having a car doesn’t make things easier…. you need to take care of it, service etc… and yet.. some people sees it as simple… “alaaa… isi minyak je”… “g je la hantar repair/servis”…. well kalau bende2 tu tak perlukan duit dah lame aku buat!!!

p.p.s: ok la.. aku nk kuar g keje… ade sesape yg nk drive utk aku?

Free

I'm free~

I AM FREE~!

FREE!!!!

No more exams. (hopefully)

Yeah. I'm free people!!!



p/s: wanna treat myself by going to Mid Valley and watch Toy Story 1 & 2... In 3-D!!! muahahaha~

Final

Lip lap lip lap, pejam celik pejam celik, makan tido makan tido, dah sampai rupenye aku ke akhir semester. 2 hari lagi start exam. Tapi serius rasa macam banyak je tak tau padahal nota-nota terbentang di depan mata. Study? Jangan harap la nak study betul-betul. Time nak fokus je mesti la ade bende yang tak kene. Macam tanak bagi aku study plak.

So, ini adalah semester terakhir aku di Universiti Malaya, Insya-Allah. Semester terakhir sebagai seorang undergraduate. Dari PASUM sampai la sekarang, 5 tahun muka ni je asyik dok keluar masuk gate UM tu. Keh keh keh. So, final exam. Like literally final. Lepas ni dah takde exam lagi dah. Hopefully la. Insya-Allah.

Oh oh. Jadual peperiksaan adalah seperti berikut;

Bil	Code	Subject	Date	Time	Place
1	SMES2407	Astrophysics & Cosmology	April 23, 2010	1500	Level 2, Examination Hall
2	SMES2206	Electricity & Magnetism	April 27, 2010	1500	Level 2, Examination Hall
3	SXEX1102	Statistics	April 29, 2010	1500	Level 2, Examination Hall
4	SMES3293	Solid State Physics	May 3, 2010	1130	Level 2, Examination Hall
5	SMES2201	Quantum Physics	May 5, 2010	0830	Level 1, Examination Hall

Sangat banyak kan? Haha. Out of 5, only 1 yang aku baru amik. Yang 4 tu paper repair. Repair tak sama dengan repeat. Sebab paper repeat sudah amik semester yang lalu. Keh keh keh. Paper repair hanya ingin menaikkan pointer yang sudah semestinya rendah ini. *kalau tinggi aku dah grad tahun lepas la wei*

Jadi, di kesempatan ini saya ingin menyusun jari memohon seribu kemaafan andai tersalah kata, tersilap bicara… Maaf Zahir dan Batin. (tak semestinya Raya je kan nak sebut benda-benda ni?)

 

 

 

 

p.s: ada banyak benda nak cakap… tapi skarang time study… jadi… “SHAMIM!!! SILA STUDY SEKARANG!!!”

… ?

Aku malas nak update blog ni. Rasanya macam dah taknak update lagi. Lebih prefer blogwalking dan baca post-post yang mengarut. Haish~

*Sudah la wei… takde cerita best dalam hidup ko buat ape nk update.*

Diamlah kau!

T_T

Once a month

Sebulan tak hapdate tiba-tiba rasa rindu lak. Keh keh keh. Takpe la. Let’s just summarize apa yang berlaku pada Februari 2010.

1. Bulan Februari dimulakan dengan cuti Hari Wilayah. Aku turut sama bercuti kerana UM terletak dalam jajahan Wilayah Persekutuan Kuala Lumpur. Serius time ni aku rasa heaven sebab takyah susah-susah nak jalan. Kaki sakit sebab ada 6 luka kat tapak kaki. Snorkeling punya pasal.

2. Lepas habis bercuti di Pangkor (untuk gambar sila lihat di Facebook) mood untuk study terus hilang. Enjoy sangat kat Pangkor.

3. Selipar kesayangan hilang di Pangkor. Mahal tu weh. RM50. Beli kat Jusco Tebrau City. Lepas tu cari yang sama jenis/kaler tak ada kat Klang Valley ni. Last-last beli brand sama tapi kaler lain. Wuuu T_T

4. Kembali aktif dalam sukan futsal setelah 3 tahun menyepikan diri. Ini bermula apabila budak-budak Fizik mengajak bermain futsal pada malam Isnin (padahal Selasa ada kelas). Sekali time main tercungap-cungap tak cukup oksigen. Penat weh lama gila tak bersukan. Letih memang tak payah cakap la. Nasib baik esoknya kelas tak skip. Ade test kot kalau tak silap.

5. Selepas futsal bersama rakan-rakan Fizik, berfustsal bersama rakan-rakan sekolah lak. Ni lagi extreme. 4 kali sepanjang 2 minggu. Memang tak nampak extreme. Tapi yang membuatkan extreme adalah selepas fustal, lepak kat mamak sampai 5 pagi. Ego punya pasal. Nasib baik buat time cuti. Kalau tak memang aku skip kelas la.

6. Yuran belum bayar habis. Sebab duit tak cukup. *Tu la enjoy sangat*. Oh oh, ingatkan aku buat evaluation subjects kat UMCTES.

7. Mahu beli banyak benda. But again… duit tadak!~ Syud dan Hazeeq sudah  buat muka seposen minta berkaraoke dan makan Subway.

8. The prospect of post-graduation buat aku risau. Masa depan masih kelihatan samar-sama. Memang sudah ada perancangan tapi aku tak tau whether good or bad.

9. Jumpa Prof Saadah kononnya nak minta advice. Dia cakap datang bilik dia time dia free lepas cuti mid sem. Tapi sampai sekarang tak jumpa-jumpa lagi. Ceh. (Prof Saadah adalah Academic Advisor aku sejak 1st year. Tapi jumpa 2 kali sepanjang 4 tahun ni) T_T

Ni je buat masa ni. Serius time tak nak tulis bukan main banyak lagi kat dalam kepala. Lepas tu nak tulis terus hilang. Cukup la sebulan sekali hapdate. Kalau aku rajin macam Syud maybe dalam sehari tu berbelas-belas post aku publish. Kan Syud? Haha~

 

 

p.s: Subway tu camne? Hazeeq cam bizi je. (padahal aku malas nak g SA amik korang semata-mata nak makan subway dan berkaraoke)

p.p.s: “Wahai mood untuk study… sila datang kembali” (dalam kepala dah fikir nak pergi bercuti lagi.. kali ni kat Perhentian)